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Are Doctors that Different from Scientists?

Physicians are very much like scientists. After observing some signs and symptoms, we make educated guesses at what may be the underlining cause. Depending on the results of some tests, we modify our guesses until we are fairly certain that it should be right. In other words, physicians, like scientists, work with logic and reason.

Once we are born into this world, we have a higher probability to get fatally sick as time goes on. The logic behind this is not only based on observations of the physical world, but it also follows the law of thermodynamics. The second law of thermodynamics states that entropy, or disorder, of the universe is always increasing. So we can think of the human body as increasing in entropy throughout life until maximum entropy occurs at death.

I believe I can logically accept the situation without compromising my mental health. However, it is in those situations where logic fails and the impossible happens that will affect physicians the most. For me, I cannot digest a situation where a young kid can be fatally sick.

Although the kid didn’t die (thank goodness), it was bad enough to play with my emotions and poke holes in my logical reasoning.

However, upon hearing the child scream, the mother pretty much went into shock and refused to step any closer to the trauma room.

After the entire ordeal ended, I saw that one of the interns as crying. The kid was ultimately transferred to PICU and I never found out how the story ended. I only know that she fractured her right femur. I have always entertained the idea of working in pediatrics, but I must wonder how pediatric physicians handle the emotional rollercoaster that comes with their job. How do they handle it emotionally? Perhaps it is something one must learn through experience.

 

-Hank Shih

 
A SCOPER's Last Journal

The nurse was obviously really annoyed and rightfully so.  It was a hard procedure to watch, as the patient was very obviously very uncomfortable.  But the surgeons were determined and made multiple attempts-- with her hand inserted, with one forcep, with two forceps, by injecting air inside with a large syringe, nothing worked.

The nurse can really serve as an important advocate for the patient.  Communication between all members of the healthcare team is so important to bring the best quality of care to the patient.

On a completely different note, it has been such a great experience shadowing doctors in the ED.  I have learned so much and it has made me that much more excited to start medical school.  I am sad to leave, but I shall return!  How cool would it be if I were to come back to Stanford for my residency?  It would be so great to be able to come full circle.  I started at SCVMC as a volunteer in the information desk, which provided such a great foundation for my knowledge of the hospital as a whole.  I started to build my confidence, to practice talking to patients , and to communicate with people of all backgrounds and tempers.  Cora and Kathleen have had the pleasure to watch me grow and to progress to SCOPE, and it has been wonderful to share that experience with them.  I will miss them!  I also feel I have made some friends in the ED, some techs, RN’s, registrar, and lastly, MD’s.  There are a number of doctors and residents that I’ve really enjoyed working with and feel that I could really see myself fitting into the culture.  Though I hadn’t really considered emergency medicine, it is now a definite possibility in my mind.  Who knows what the future holds?  Maybe I will be back in 4 years!

-Ann Leu

 
A Reflection on Life Lessons

Dr. X and I have a laugh each time I remind him that the word of the day is “ageusia” from a patient we saw that had a history of acromegally and was now experiencing loss of taste sensation. Another Dr. X patient led to my doing a tremendous amount of research on Diabetic Keto-Acidosis.

Dr. X taught me to always ask a patient what you can do for them and to never settle for blindly following procedures. “Use your brain!”

Dr. X taught me to always encourage patients to stop smoking.

Dr. X modeled the importance of addressing the personhood of the patient.

Dr. X displayed how to make each patient feel that they are the only one that matters, even if it is only for a moment.

Dr. X taught me the importance of a sense of humor and to always anticipate how an ER patient may physically harm you and prepare for it.

Dr. X showed true humility.

Dr. X spent time explaining how to make career decisions in medicine.

Dr. X displayed some of the best bedside manner I have seen in emergency medicine.

Dr. X taught a no-nonsense approach to medicine.

I have never enjoyed learning so much.

-Peter Ballard

 
Dr. McCullough's Journey

Four Quads (Quadriplegics)

 

During a recent trauma shift I met John (name changed) (quad #1), a vibrant C5-6 quadriplegic with a wonderful new wife, a brand-new van (now totaled), and recent baby he had conceived in the “natural way.”  Since his diving accident in high school John hadn’t missed a beat of the drum of life.  His eyes and smile lit the room from the trauma gurney where he recounted the funniest story we had heard in some time in the ER.

C5-6 ‘quads’ (cervical transaction between the C5 and C6 vertebrate two levels below Christopher Reeve’s injury) can actually control part of their arm and shoulder, not a complete quad as we think it.  The higher you transect, the more you lose.  Christopher Reeve breaths with help of a ventilator. Two levels lower, at C8-T1, you can use your hands.  Spinal injuries almost come in clubs because the deficit patterns are so specific, depending almost entirely spinal injury level.

In sum, at C5-6 one can pull but not push, with no finger movement.  But if notched into a steering knob on the right hand, and a modified throttle and break on the left, a quadriplegic at C5-6 can, barely, but safely, drive an adapted car, usually a van.

Years ago, my uncle Ted (real name) (quad #2) let me drive his van in college when he wasn’t using it, so I am personally familiar with the controls.  He had broken his neck being active too, as a helmeted motorcyclist enjoying the Oregon countryside where I grew up.  Like John, my uncle Ted’s injury ignited his spirit and appreciation of life.  Ted taught me medical lessons long before medical school, especially about spinal cord injuries.

For John, getting his new van was Christmas and a birthday rolled together.  Freedom.  An open road.  Less dependence.

John was out for his second test-drive, on a local highway when his throttle jammed.  55, 65, 75, 85, 95mph.  Quite a powerful engine, more so than the brake which shortly ground through after dropping the speed to 40.  The engine overpowered the brake.  Back up.  45, 55, 65, 75, 85…….

John is quite a storyteller, even from the gurney; his facial animation makes up for his lack of coordinated arm movement, even imitating the 8-cylinder engine noise accelerating back toward 100mph.

John’s wife gazed glowingly as he came to the climax of the story.  “I figured I better get off the highway or I was going to die.”  Sure enough.

Off-ramps can’t take those speeds, so John just jumped it.  Through a perimeter fence, traversing an open area, piling an inner fence, smashing a barrier, over a curb.  Each obstacle absorbing some speed.  Down to zero, stalled in the dirt.

But the only reason to have such an open space in the crowded Bay area was that this was Lockheed’s military research wing.  And all the security guards saw, or at least what they reported to the S.W.A.T. team, was that a white windowless van has just penetrated all their defenses at 80mph.

Helicopters.  Sirens.  M16’s.  Laser sights.  “I was lit up like a Christmas tree.”

“Step out of the car.”  The megaphone boomed.

“Hands over your head.”  Came the second request.

Neither of which is really possible with a C5-6 injury.

“If I still had my goatee, I think I would have been toast.”  John proposed.

Certainly, the post 9/11 anxieties accented the whole affair.

Eventually, the laser sights lowered; an ambulance was called (just to be safe).    This brought John’s pleasant story, and happy conclusion, to the tail of my long shift during which two others had died in unrelated illnesses.

I admitted John to the hospital just to be sure his sore neck was ok.  It was -- CT scan negative -- and he went home today.

__________

 

I never learned the name of Quad #3; I will call her Julie.  We briefly met in the hall one fresh Sunday morning near the spinal rehab which is in the same wing as the ER.  Her injury was fresh, as evidenced by the back brace she wore.  Hands flat, electric chair movement controlled with her chin -- a C4-5 injury at best.

Julie’s mischievous grin and presence in a main hallway made it clear she was playing hookie from the rehab unit.  I enjoyed Julie’s smile so much that I circled back around a parallel hallway for the privilege of greeting her smile again.

A study on quadriplegia and happiness showed that, within 2-3 years, following the initial shock and regrouping, that quadriplegics usually return to their baseline levels of happiness.  Julie didn’t seem to want to wait that long.  Her smile radiated so deeply from within that it seemed to be formed more by her spirit than her lips.

Although I’m usually happy, Julie’s grin and playful laughter as she hid from the nurses and basked in the morning sun, made me wonder how long, with all this medical education, it had been since I had smiled and laughed like Julie did, so fully consumed in the moment.

Sometimes, people ask those who work in the trauma center and public hospital how they work around such pain and suffering.  Good question.   I think the acuity of events often stirs a sleeping authenticity we seldom get to enjoy from others.

I have come to enjoy helping trauma patients, not for the blood, nor even for the trauma at all, but because, for windows of brief lucidity, the entirety of humanity, decency, and compassion sometimes emerges.  Priorities are set right.  Bonds of family and friendship are polished and reinforced.  I like medicine for this, emergency medicine in particular, because it reminds me, as it reminds the patients, of the echo of the meaning in their lives.

___________

 

Quad #4 was a lesson in assumptions.  Drunks and drug addicts often arrive in cervical collars to protect against potential neck injury (as do about half the ambulance patients).  Recently an ambulance arrived with a patient (I will call him Brian) for transfer to ‘rehab.’  He appeared disheveled.  At first glance, this garnered a homeless appearance.

One of the ER nurses asked the paramedic “which drug,” which is a fair question as someone enters drug rehab.  The sober patient piped in, “I just broke my neck at C6.”

Spinal rehab, not drug rehab.  We all took a breath.  For us, a little collective humility; for Brian, a new life trajectory.

I walked over, laying a hand on his shoulder, looked Brian directly in eyes and told him we would do everything we could, meaning that rehab would.  I tucked a loose blanket in.  My Uncle Ted had taught me long before my medical school that quadriplegics have problems with heat regulation; perhaps Brian was already too cold and didn’t know it.  With complete lucidity, he just said “thank you.”

In the past hour since the injury, Brian had clearly lived a year -- obviously, visualizing his new life, or trying to.  He stared straight up, watching the ceiling go by as the paramedics whisked him off to spinal  rehab.

I hope he gets to work with Julie during therapy.

 

-Dr. Michael McCullough

 
Medical Care for Immigrants
During my first shift training as an interpreter, I felt truly immersed in my own culture. I remember Dr. X spending a lot of time informing me that many of the patients we see are immigrants, sometimes illegal, and that they are vulnerable because this is a new system, a new culture. This vulnerability sometimes leads them to accept any service they may get, even if it may not be the best. Dr. X said that the ER serves as a safe place for them, providing someone to whom they can relate and express themselves freely. If we do our job right, we can clearly get the doctor the information they need so that the patient is fully served and satisfied. He also said that as interpreters, we have a great responsibility because we act as referees between the doctors and the patients and it is on us to make sure that both patient and physician are well served and satisfied.

-Xochilt Borja

 
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